I Would Rather Have One Best Friend…
Yesterday in the middle of a text message conversation Kelsey and I were having, I got a message the read the following…
"… sorry I have so many other friends to hang out with besides one."
Tears immediately flooded my eyes. That was probably the first time I didn’t know how to respond to someone. Was I really a nobody because I don’t hang out with a lot of people? Should I always surround myself with people, even if I don’t like them? I kept asking the Lord and asking myself a million questions trying to disprove her and sew back together my broken heart. And then the Lord spoke as I asked Him, and asked myself these questions. It was almost as clear as anything. Not audible words. But it was the Lord, as prominent as ever. And he said to me, "Haley, wouldn’t you rather have that one best friend." My tears fell. Yes I would rather have that one friend, and if Kelsey’s jealousy of Paige is a problem I feel bad for her.
I would rather have my one Paige, then hang out with fake Kelsey and all of her fake friends just because I want to feel like I know a lot of people. My life is not about that. My life isn’t about seeing how many people I can meet. I would rather be perfectly content with my one best friend, than miserable with a bunch of people I would rather not be around. Kelsey just doesn’t get it I guess…
Thank you, Lord, for Paige. Thank you, Lord, for speaking to me when I needed it. And thank You for being You.
Please pray for me in my daily struggle with Kelsey. Pray God can soften her heart and give me the right words to say.
XXOO
p.s. I will be home this weekend =)
You go girl…some people believe they have to go with the crowd to be cool and popular but you know in your heart what is best for you! “Years ago” when I was in high school I always told myself that if I had to “go with the crowd” to be popular or have lots of friends then I didn’t need those “so called friends” like that anyway! Believe it too……..Love Ya!
Comment by Sandy — October 1, 2008 @ 12:07 pm
One best friend that understands you and truly allows you to be you, is better than anything else. And you know what? As a grown-up, you don’t have or need more than 5 really good friends. So kudos to you, Hae!
Comment by Jason — October 6, 2008 @ 12:11 pm