The Life of a College Girl

So, it has been forever.

And in regards to the last post, we have a beautiful praise to the Lord. On December 21 Andrew accepted the Lord into his life to be the ruler and father that he needs!!! AMEN!!!

 As for everything else, school is GREAT!! I love college and how easy/hard it can be…. I love that is challenges me in so many different aspects of my life.

I have been super busy at home though. Every weekend since this semester started I have been going home to do something!! I love the time with my family though. I have had a hard time not being able to see them everyday like I did last year, but everything is ok!

I am very excited about DNow at Chestnut Grove coming up in a few weeks where I will be the middle school girls small group leader. I am so honored to have been ask to spiritually lead such a young group that I will do my best to poor my knowledge and love for the Lord into! They are at the perfect age to be molded and loved on and I am so excited that over the weekend I will get to show them my love for Christ by loving them!! I CAN’T WAIT!!

 

I will update more, I promise!!! 

Conviction. Goodness it hits hard.

Yesterday it harder than I have ever felt it in my entire life, and today I responded faster than I ever have in my life.

I don’t know how many of you know about my relationship status, but I was dating a boy I met this summer. It wasn’t anything too serious since I moved away just recently, but I definitely liked him. At the beginning of our relationship though, I didn’t exactly make it as clear as I should have how strong I was in my faith and that I wanted our relationship to be centered around that. My fault. What was I thinking? That is SO not Haley it isn’t even funny. Never-the-less, I am at House Church last night in complete worship with God, and there it was. Loud and clear. Break up. "This isn’t about Me at all," I heard. And that was true. Our relationship wasn’t about Him. At all. So House Church ends and I head back to the dorm. As soon as I got home I opened my Bible and started reading 2 Corinthians. I never do that, is the weird thing. So I keep reading and I get here…

"Do not mismatched with unbelievers. For what partnership is there between righteousness and lawlessness? Or what fellowship does light and darkness have?"

Got me. He got me. 

So today, I approached the situation. No change. Therefore….

No Boyfriend.

 

It’s been about a month since all the roommate "drama" began, and I have just now realized drama is not the word that needs to be used anymore. Situation. It’s much better of a word, don’t you think?

The situation at hand has been put in my life by the Lord and Savior for a reason. The reason I have been through hell and back with the roommate is still unknown to me. The fact that the situation has a purpose is not unknown, though. People have told me over and over that there is a reason, a purpose for the fighting, the bickering, and the tears; but it is just now that I realize it for myself.

So… no drama. Just situation(s) and purpose.

I can’t wait until the day I see what my patience and love really did to impact her through this hard time. 

Things are looking up though. Pleasant conversations have taken place, and the Lord is working. I just keep praying He will handle mine and her heart!

Ok, first let me say. I’m sorry I have been slacking on the blog posts lately. It’s been over a week since I last posted, but I have a pretty good excuse… I have just been busy =)

I know you are already wondering about my title, but you will have to wait because I have a lot of other stuff to talk about first.

So, my birthday is a week from tomorrow… uh HOLLA. I think I love my birthday more than anyone in the world! Halloween is coming up, and my mom and family is coming to Milledgeville! EEEEEK!!! I can’t wait!!!

So school is fantastic. I am doing very well in ALL of my classes. I struggle the most in Chemistry, but I have heard that it is the hardest part of pre nursing, so I am glad I am getting it out of the way!

On to my title though…

This weekend I experienced the most amazing thing ever. I went to work with Nikki at Children’s Healthcare of Atlanta for a project for my advisement class at school. The whole day I was absolutely STOKED!! I couldn’t wait to get there and experience the hospital on the side of it I had never been before. When we left the house though, I got nervous. What if I was so excited about something and then I got there and hated it? I was really hoping that I would love it and as soon as I walked in the hospital with Nikki all my excitement came back. We went down the hall to her unit, probably the hardest in the whole hospital and got to work immediately. I got a little nervous again though. I didn’t want to be in the way, I didn’t want to freeze up, and I didn’t want to not like it. Thoughts kept running in and out of mind about what to do in case of an emergency and things of the like. I knew I could do it though and tried to relax because I was so excited to be there! After doing rounds and seeing all the patients and giving medicines and such we had an admission of a sweet little girl. Her and her dad came in because she had been diagnosed with ITP and things weren’t going so well. The hospital admitted her so she could get treatment and get on her way. Nikki did the normal admission questions and left the room to grab a few things and I was left alone in the room alone with the dad and little girl. She was so sweet, not looking sick at all besides all the bruises from her ITP, and was enthralled with the TV. She loved hitting all the buttons on the remote and in the middle of her playing, she paused and her big brown eyes look up at me and she said, "Are you my nurse?" At that moment I knew it was for me. Nursing was what I wanted to do. All she wanted was for someone to help her and she knew nurses did that. Whether it is an adult or a sweet brown eyed two year old girl, I want to help them. I wanted so badly to say, "Yes I am you nurse," but I just told her I was her nurses helper and she still loved it. 

Nursing school is going be hard, I know it will… But I CANNOT wait for the reward it will bring me!!!!!!! 

I guess I haven’t blogged because over the past week I have barely had anything nice to say. It wasn’t a horrible week, but things just weren’t how they were supposed to be, so I didn’t write. I know you guys are sick of hearing me rant, anyways =)

 I am excited about this week though! Friday I get to babysit my Pookie and Ten Ten all day. We haven’t had a day to just ourselves in a very long time. I treasure our time together with their innocent minds and unconditional love for me. I love them so much. Then Saturday night I get to go to work with Nikki for a few hours for a service project for my nursing seminar class! I can’t wait!!!!! Being her shadow nurse will be such a learning experience, even if I am only there for a few hours. ( I don’t think I could pull an all nighter like she does!!)

So this week I have things to look forward to and I can’t wait!!! Let’s get this show on the road =)

School work first though, of course!!

 

XXOO 

I guess before I came to college I didn’t think about all the parts about school, and money, and well life. I think I had it in my mind that I was just going to be living away from my parents, doing whatever I want, and answering to no one. In reality though, that isn’t what has happened, and I am kind of glad. I learned right away, yes I still have to answer to my parents, even if I don’t live with them. They ARE paying for my education. Classes do matter, and are sometimes quite difficult and take a lot of work to succeed in, and money, goodness does it go fast… In all of this though, I think I have already grown up a bit, just since they time I have been here. I am on my own. Independent would be the word. I am a big kid now!!!!!! I love it!!!!! 

Yesterday in the middle of a text message conversation Kelsey and I were having, I got a message the read the following…

"… sorry I have so many other friends to hang out with besides one."

Tears immediately flooded my eyes. That was probably the first time I didn’t know how to respond to someone. Was I really a nobody because I don’t hang out with a lot of people? Should I always surround myself with people, even if I don’t like them? I kept asking the Lord and asking myself a million questions trying to disprove her and sew back together my broken heart. And then the Lord spoke as I asked Him, and asked myself these questions. It was almost as clear as anything. Not audible words. But it was the Lord, as prominent as ever. And he said to me, "Haley, wouldn’t you rather have that one best friend." My tears fell. Yes I would rather have that one friend, and if Kelsey’s jealousy of Paige is a problem I feel bad for her.

I would rather have my one Paige, then hang out with fake Kelsey and all of her fake friends just because I want to feel like I know a lot of people. My life is not about that. My life isn’t about seeing how many people I can meet. I would rather be perfectly content with my one best friend, than miserable with a bunch of people I would rather not be around. Kelsey just doesn’t get it I guess…

Thank you, Lord, for Paige. Thank you, Lord, for speaking to me when I needed it. And thank You for being You. 

Please pray for me in my daily struggle with Kelsey. Pray God can soften her heart and give me the right words to say.

 

XXOO

p.s. I will be home this weekend =) 

So the living situation, as you all have read, hasn’t been so great. Kelsey and I are butting heads quite a bit on different issues in the room and with our friends. She, despite the problems however, keeps talking about the living arrangements for next year. She says things about us living together and getting a puppy and which apartment complex we want to live in. Since I am really unsure about what I want to do, I usually just nod and say, "Yeah that would be pretty fun," or something to of the like. 

The thing is, I really don’t want to live with her. For that reason, I haven’t given her a definite yes answer. I think it would be stupid to keep talking about it like it’s going to happen, when I really would prefer to not live with her ever again. I don’t like it. At all, actually.

So today, on my girl trip to Madison with Paige, Rachel, and one of Rachel’s friends, the living situations come up. Paige and I have been talking about getting an apartment together because in the short time we have known each other, we have become the absolute best of friends. Anyways, back to my story. So we are talking about it and Rachel proceeds to say, "Yeah, Kelsey said she doesn’t want to live with you next year, and she already has people to live with."

OK SOUNDS GOOD. DIDN’T KNOW I WAS THE ONE CAUSING THE PROBLEM, ESPECIALLY SINCE I GO HOME EVERY WEEKEND TO GET AWAY FROM YOU AND PRAY YOU SPEND THE NIGHT WITH YOU BOYFRIEND SO I DON’T HAVE TO SEE YOU WHEN I WAKE UP.

Stop talking about living with me if you don’t want to.

It DEFINITELY isn’t going to hurt my feelings, because Guess What?!?!?!? I DONT WANT TO LIVE WITH YOU EITHER..

CURSE WORD

CURSE WORD

CURSE WORD

 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Can’t you just be real. Like me. I don’t talk about it, because I don’t know what I’m doing. And when I say, "I don’t know what I am doing" that means I don’t know what I am doing….

 

Thanks though, for being as fake as you freaking can. 

YOU make everything glorious. Praise you.

This week has been great so far! Good grades, better times with the roommate, and most of all, good fall weather.

My favorite time of any. FALL. This time in the year is when I find myself so amazed by God and all His glory. The perfect temperature, the beautiful orange leaves, (which by the way, God told them to do that) the breeze, the smells, the everything. Every time I walk outside I can’t help but almost stop in my tracks and just say, Thank you, God.

Thank you for making everything glorious.

 

XXOO 

Shall Pass.